Getting older is not always fun.

Today, for some reason-my attitude went from rediculously happy/optimistic to total shit. I was on facebook [get off my back] and I've come to the conclusion that once you go away- you’re gone. I have texted, facebook messaged, called and done some other things to keep in touch with friends I had, and I have only gotten a response from the few who had “time” or wanted to. Some of the people I had once held so dear to me, since I moved two states away, haven’t talked to me at all, or have very infrequently. I feel out of the loop and… awkward. Before I left, they told me to not forget them- I never will, but have they forgotten me?
Growing up is hard. Getting older is worse.

This used to be a funhouse... now it's full of evil clowns

i've been REDICULOUSLY sick the past... god, it's been too long. i went to the health center and they gave me a pass for the classes i missed [quite a few] then i had to go get the meds she prescribed.
well, they were $90. really? for TWO MEDICATIONS?!
w/e insurance covers it, i just have to fill out a pain in the ass form :-p

so, there was this huge fiasco with my roommate and her friend... but it's way long so here's what happened, paraphrased.
*she and her friend went out/got really drunk
*came back-passed out in the **SHARED** lounge. if an RA would have come, they would have gotten citations.
* i went and helped these 3 other girls take them both into my room.
*we put breanna onto the floor [for a short amount of time...] so we could get daniela into bed
*daniela gets into bed, throws up in trash can
*breanna throws up all over herself and my floor... then proceeds to roll in it and pass out.
*we clean breanna up a bit, put her on a blanket and drag her down the hallway into the showers... cold water.
*cleaned up.. ish she whips her shirt off and we put her into bed- but she just curls up to daniela instead of the other end.
*dry-heaves over daniela into a trash can.
*flips around to the other end and passes out.

...i legit had to check out to make sure they were breathing, they were that drunk. it was disgusting. the sheer amount of puke on our floor was... amazing.

anyway, so i ended going to bed at around... 4:30-5:00, and i was supposed to get up at 9ish to get ready to go to melissa's.. woo! no sleep! anyway-i get back up, go through the motions of getting ready-leave... get to melissa's at.. what was it, 11:00?
so then we leave to g to NYC :) We walked WAY too much on saturday. i'd realized a bit earlier that the prop 8 protest was that day, so we decided [on a whim] to check it out... but we had some time to kill-so we walked. here's an outlined guide of where we went.



we walked from penn to times square *embarrassingly* got a map. walked up to Roc Center, went into the nintendo store, saw the tree [which is SHORT btw. ;)], went into the NBC store :-D, got melissa a pretzel, walked over to lexington [walked past Grand Central!!!!! ahh, smarch.], and walked down and over to broadway, then down broadway to city hall. saw gay ppl gaLORE [and we were worried we'd missed everything, b/c by the time we walked down there it was like, 4 ish....] then joined in kind of a protest march. it was AMAZING. we walked over to west broadway, and up it with the marchers... people were coming out of stores and clapping, and cheering we were chanting and there was an amazing flamboyant man whom we tried to follow b/c of his awesomeness... /end creeper of the day ... also some dude in a park we walked through stood up from his sandwich and cheered :-D. it was AMAZING. we both were amazingly happy. :) then we broke off from the pack when they turned toward a park by NYU [Wash Sq? i feel like it was after that.. Union Sq i think.] and kept walking up till 32nd, and cut over to mad sq/penn.
CRAZY day. OVER 130 BLOCKS. god, my feet are sore.


[FYI, they had dr. spaceman shirt too, total love!]






so we finally leave and we get back to the train station [i was sleeping the whole ride home, 3 hours of sleep will do that to you!] and it's DOWNPOURING.
so, we get back to her house alive and make a video message for Diane Neal's B-day... BTW, it's officially TODAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!





Party it up Diane!


So, saturday night i FINALLY got to meet Melissa's friend Jimmy [she says we're exactly the same.. not that we look the same cause we don't but there's a LOT we have in common. we should have gotten a pic together.] he's AWESOME. and we definitely wore about the same thing-if only i'd kept on my jeans! we had on the SAME color shirt [maroon, WHO WEARS MAROON?!]. and it's just too hard to describe the rest... but we're the same person. Anyway, we played rockband [M, J, C, and a few friends of theirs] until like 12. i stayed at M's house overnight with coll and we watched stephanie march videos, fanvids, and the like. in the morning we ate yummy bagels, drank coffee and sat in her kitchen for like SERIOUSLY 4 hours. talking, eating and enjoying life. i think we'll be great roommates, guys. really.
that's about it for my day/weekend. now i'm screwed cause i still haven't done anything for CJ or English. oh well. :)

oh! just so you all know, P!nk's new album Funhouse is AMAZING. the song Funhouse is what my title came from, and Melissa happens to like Ave Mary A, kind of like Ave Maria.
Funny i mentioned THAT because Beyonce's new album, As I Am... Sasha Fierce isn't bad either! and Ave Maria is a song on hers too. i can't decide which i like more b/c both are totally different genre's. i have a feeling P!nk was going for hard rock [um, duh] and Beyonce is more for, christmasey. i can't decide on favorite songs on the album either b/c they are both far too awesome. if you're into either [or both!] download/buy them immediately. they are GREAT.so, have a nice night! and if you're a fan of diane and wish to leave her a b-day message head over here to her guestbook!!!!
http://pub13.bravenet.com/guestbook/1089283549

something to make me even happier- my dove candy has inspirational/cute things on the inside of the wrapper. my faves are....
♥Laugh Often, Smile Much, Love Always
♥Life is a painting, cover the entire canvas
♥Take a walk through frosty grass leaving footprints
♥Fly kites in an azure blue sky
♥Challenge yourself and seek inward peace
♥Be the change you hope to see
♥Belief in yourself is a candle burning brightly without end
♥The breath of Autumn is a whisper to the soul

One more thing, promise this is it! thanksgiving is in a week and a half then i only have two weeks of this semester left, OMG!!! i need to get crackin! haha. but seriously.
i'm SO excited to get to go home, i miss everyone! i'm in the drawing for secret santa this year [you have to be at least 18 and out of H.S.] and it's amazing.
you have no idea how happy i am. i don't think i've EVER been SO EXCITED for the holidays. ALSO, i AM going to see the Roc tree lighted. my friend Kaitlyn [ha!] and i are going. probably Ally and Alyssa too. btw, Kaitlyn is BISEXUAL! i came out to her and she did to me too!!!!!!! i'm so happy i could pass out. ok, for real-homework time.

...even christians make mistakes!

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100 Reminders To Live By

For my first post i'll start out very inspirational, and then i need to go to bed.

1. make the best of bad situations.

2. look people in the eye.

3. learn to play a musical instrument.

4. be the first to say 'hello'.

5. be forgiving of yourself & others.

6. treat everyone you meet like you want to be treated.

7. make new friends but cherish the old ones.

8. keep secrets.

9. take lots of snapshots.

10. dont postpone joy.

11. never give up on anybody. miracles happen everyday.

12. surprise loved ones with little unexpected gifts.

13. live so that when people think of fairness, caring, & integrity, they think of you.

14. admit your mistakes.

15. make it a habit to do nice things for people who'll never find out.

16. always have something beautiful in sight, even if it's just a neighbourhood flower in a jelly glass.

17. think big thoughts, but relish small pleasures.

18. smile a lot. it costs nothing and is beyond price.

19. learn to listen. opportunity sometimes knocks very softly.

20. when someone is realting an important event that happened to them, don't try to top them with a story of your own. let them have the stage.

21. never deprive someone of hope. it might be all they have.

22. when playing games with children, let them win.

23. skip one meal a week & give what you would have spent to charity.

24. strive for excellence, not perfection.

25. take time to smell the roses.

26. pray not for things, but for wisdom & courage.

27. be tough-minded but tender-hearted.

28. avoid negative people.

29. be original.

30. never give up on what you really want to do. the person with big dreams is more powerful than one with all the facts.

31. be kinder than necessary.

32. never be afraid to do things your own way.

33. be romantic.

34. let people know what you stand for - and what you won't stand for.

35. become the most positive & enthusiastic person you know.

36. don't forget that a person's greatest emotional need is to feel appreciated.

37. show respect to all living things.

38. loosen up. relax. except for rare life & death matters, nothing is as important as it first seems.

39. commit yourself to constant self-improvement.

40. don't waste time grieving over past mistakes. learn from them & move on.

41. be a good loser.

42. be a good winner.

43. never tell anyone they look tired or depressed.

44. when someone hugs you, let them be the first to let go.

45. keep your promises.

50. keep it simple.

51. take good care of those you love.

52. learn to show cheerfulness, even when you don’t feel like it.

53. never cut what can be untied.

54. everyday, show your family how much you love them with your words, with your touch, & with your thoughtfulness.

55. beware of the person who has nothing to lose.

56. lie on your back & look at the stars.

57. leave everything a little better than you found it.

58. never underestimate your power to change yourself.

59. never overestimate your power to change others.

60. get in shape & stay that way.

61. don’t burn bridges. You’ll be surprised how many times you have to cross the same river.

62. keep expectations high.

63. accept pain & disappointment as part of life.

64. see problems as opportunities for growth & self-mastery.

65. don’t expect life to be fair.

66. hear both sides before judging.

67. refrain from envy, it’s the source of much unhappiness.

68. don’t delay acting on a good idea. Chances are someone else has just thought of it, too. Success comes to the one who acts first.

69. live your life so that your epitaph could read "no regrets".

70. be bold & courageous. When you look back on your life, you’ll regret the things you didn’t do more than the ones you did.

71. never waste an opportunity to tell someone you love them.

72. evaluate yourself by your own standards, not someone else’s.

73. be there when people need you.

74. don’t let anyone talk you out of pursuing what you know to be a great idea.

75. know when to be silent.

76. know when to speak up.

77. remember that no one makes it alone. Have a grateful heart & be quick to acknowledge those who help you.

78. take charge of your attitude. Don’t let someone else choose it for you.

79. pay attention to the details.

80. be loyal.

81. understand that happiness is not based on possessions, power, or prestige, but on the relationships with people you love & respect.

82. don’t let your possessions possess you.

83. begin each day with your favorite music.

84. be enthusiastic about the success of others.

85. don’t procrastinate, do what needs doing when it needs to be done.

86. do more than expected.

87. don’t allow self-pity. The moment this emotion strikes, do something nice for someone less fortunate than you.

88. make a list of 25 things you want to experience before you die. Carry it in your wallet & refer to it often.

89. every person that you meet knows something you don’t. learn from them

90. laugh a lot. A good sense of humor cures almost all of life’s ills.

91. don’t use time or words carelessly, neither can be retrieved.

92. don’t miss the magic of the moment by focusing on what’s to come.

93. don’t be rushed into making an important decision.

94. don’t make the same mistake twice.

95. become someone’s hero.

96. after you’ve worked hard to get what you want, take the time to enjoy it.

97. take life one step at a time.

98. don’t worry about tomorrow, just make it through today.

99. do what you can, with what you have, where you are.

100. live the present - it’s irreplaceable.